The bigger picture

I’m not good at gauging the appropriate amount of time it takes to do anything.  That flaw, coupled with a laid-back attitude bordering on apathy, means the time-sensitive things in my life often end disastrously.  When it comes to an international move, I’m acutely aware of how problematic this inability to pace myself is and I’ve been feeling the stress building over the past few days.

I brought two suitcases back with me after my trip to Madrid last weekend and have already packed the biggest one with the remainder of my books, art, and photos.  The medium-sized case will probably be filled with clothes as it gets closer to next weekend when I once again return to Madrid.  After that trip, the next time I’ll fly to Spain will be for good.

I’ve already sorted two bags of clothes to donate and will likely have one more set aside when all is said and done.  I’ve made a list of things to sell or give away.  I can ship anything else I can’t fit into suitcases.

In the midst of all of this, I’m extremely blessed to have a beautiful flat already secured in Malasaña.  My criteria wasn’t extensive; I wanted a place with a balcony and a lot of natural light in a central neighborhood.  So everyday at work, when there was some downtime, I was searching through the available ads and sending them on to J.  He didn’t waste any time making appointments and by the third viewing, he had found our place.  It was easily my favorite out of all of the apartments I had sent to him.  Like everything up until now, this just seemed predestined.

Despite the stress I’ve been beating back daily surrounding the visa application (post to come on this, turns out I can apply from Dublin), finishing up at work, getting everything packed and moved, and closing out my lease, I have the most amazing things to look forward to.  In less than a month’s time, I’ll be living in a beautiful city with the person I love, finally able to fully focus on writing.

Through everything I’ve experienced over the course of my relatively short life, I’ve found that you should never force it.  Whatever “it” is, be it a relationship or situation, if it is right, you’ll feel it.  Of course, this is not to say that it will always be easy.  But through the complications, you’ll never lose sight of the bigger picture when you’ve found your missing pieces.

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